Depression
Before I go on my dumb rant, sorry for the downer post. I haven’t felt too good recently. I know it seems dumb to apologize, but I like to.
I want to quit social media. Everyday, I tell myself that. I want to study, yet I never do. I want to become a straight A* student, but I can’t bring myself to studying.
I’ve been like this for a while, I stay up all night doing whatever makes me happy? And realize I messed up my sleep schedule, even as I’m typing this at 9 am, I did not get a lick of sleep.
I’m addicted to many things, my phone being one of them. I don’t know what to do— I need my phone for many things, and I want to keep it. I grew up around technology, and because I can’t speak the language of my home country, It’s either isolation or addiction.
I told myself I’m taking this month as a break from my studies, and the month before I said this is the month I will revise everything. I can’t stick to one thing.
Im becoming a dumb zombie, and honestly? It’s just making me feel even worse. I wish my brain was normal. This hurts