ADM[I]T [I]T!
Thats the best thing I can tell anyone, such a small phrase but you can apply it to so much.
Like, for example, you have done something behind someone’s back. Or, you have been going through a depressive episode. You thought about suicide. You found a statement uncomfortable. You like someone. You excused your mistakes to get a higher grade to show off…
And that’s just off the top of my head. I want you to reread that statement, if you felt a pain in your gut, most likely, you should listen to it. It’s okay if it’s you being an asshole, the longer it stays in your head rather than the real world, the longer you wont be able to breathe with it.
I want to also remind you, you are human. All those fuckups you did? I fucked up, too. So did your friends, so did theirs. The people on the street, the people on social media are no different, either.
Look around and ask your closest friends, “have you ever fucked up?” they will say yes, unless you are friends with an infant. Everyone is like you. They are scared to talk.
So, be the start of your community talking. Admit your flaws. Like this quote puts it;
I know I am intelligent because I know I know nothing.
-Socrates
So admit it! Say it proud!
Don’t be ashamed for your past. Be ashamed of what your response to it is. When you fuck up, you fix it. So.. admit it and fix it. take care of yourself.
A majority of this is ment for future me. I have.. terrible paranoia. I even got worried typing that. And crippling guilt; may be a bit of an overreaction, but it does ache almost hourly. And.. I wanted to have something to read back on.
And if you feel alone, talk to a new person… even online. You are human, too.
Thanks for reading. Please, take care of yourself.